1.27.2004
I can't blog tonight.
I have a lot of feelings, and less words to describe them.
Love is a very strong word. I love her. Is that ok?
<3
I have a lot of feelings, and less words to describe them.
Love is a very strong word. I love her. Is that ok?
<3
1.13.2004
I started another blog. It's not really a personal blog, but most of the boring shit that I want to blog that doesn't belong here will go there.
-oyasumi
(sorry to bump alan's post)
-oyasumi
(sorry to bump alan's post)
1.10.2004
[Song: Ajimu - Orange]
..Yeah. I haven't blogged in a while. It's been a rather stable week until the end of it..
I got into a huge fight with my dad.. I don't think I'll be living with my dad for much longer; wherever I end up, s'all good as long as it's not:
1.) here
2.) has a cable connection.
I want to live with chris.. that seems really interesting, but I'm going to have to talk to my mom about that, and I don't know how that'll go.
After this huge fight, I had a huge emotional breakdown with my mom on the phone.. talking about how my father is. I'd rather not go into detail about it, but he's not exactly the best person in the world. It had been the first time I cried a lot in a long time.. maybe a year or two. It felt really good, refreshing, and cleansing and now I feel rather stoic about the issue. I just know that I can't stay here and let this crap happen again, so moving out would be good.
Anyway, onto another issue.. the highlight of my week has probably been spending more time with Theresa.. it's scary really. The past has REALLY taught me not to trust a relationship at this point.. but for some reason I trust her with everything. We're both new to 'real' relationships, and it's pretty funny; going day by day and trying to figure out things for ourselves. Theresa put a really cute aquarius + aquarius comparision in her blog, and it made me smile. She makes me smile in general. When I felt down last night, after, I just thought about moving out.. and her.
Another interesting aspect in this relationship is that we're fully confident with each others feelings. I can't help but admit that it's the first time in a relationship with someone where I didn't have to question her feelings every other day. I'm just really insecure with things.. but with her it's different for some reason, and I really like it.
I really like it.
..Yeah. I haven't blogged in a while. It's been a rather stable week until the end of it..
I got into a huge fight with my dad.. I don't think I'll be living with my dad for much longer; wherever I end up, s'all good as long as it's not:
1.) here
2.) has a cable connection.
I want to live with chris.. that seems really interesting, but I'm going to have to talk to my mom about that, and I don't know how that'll go.
After this huge fight, I had a huge emotional breakdown with my mom on the phone.. talking about how my father is. I'd rather not go into detail about it, but he's not exactly the best person in the world. It had been the first time I cried a lot in a long time.. maybe a year or two. It felt really good, refreshing, and cleansing and now I feel rather stoic about the issue. I just know that I can't stay here and let this crap happen again, so moving out would be good.
Anyway, onto another issue.. the highlight of my week has probably been spending more time with Theresa.. it's scary really. The past has REALLY taught me not to trust a relationship at this point.. but for some reason I trust her with everything. We're both new to 'real' relationships, and it's pretty funny; going day by day and trying to figure out things for ourselves. Theresa put a really cute aquarius + aquarius comparision in her blog, and it made me smile. She makes me smile in general. When I felt down last night, after, I just thought about moving out.. and her.
Another interesting aspect in this relationship is that we're fully confident with each others feelings. I can't help but admit that it's the first time in a relationship with someone where I didn't have to question her feelings every other day. I'm just really insecure with things.. but with her it's different for some reason, and I really like it.
I really like it.
1.04.2004
1.02.2004
Staring at the screen name "AZnBoiFoRLyFexx" has got me wondering..
When will a person born of asian ethnicity not be asian?
... -___________-
When will a person born of asian ethnicity not be asian?
... -___________-
[music: Dj Mystik - Milky Way (Trashy trance music)]
Yeah, the last 3 post were rather random, but necessary.
I don't even know, but here I am to blog a rather lengthy post compared to the last.
Be notified that I'm just doing this to kill time to get back into CS; as my bittorrent is choking up CS so much its become rather impossible to play.
Anyway, new years. I had a rather mundane new years, I was at my moms house and we didn't do anything. But it felt necessary to have those relaxation periods. The day before, I had gone to the mall and picked out some stuff, but that wasn't such a big deal.
Theresa called that night, and we talked for about an hour, and that's becoming a rather scheduled thing. I enjoy it though, it's fun, and I hope she feels the same way too. My download is finishing up, there hasn't been an event to strike me to write a longer, deeper post, so im gone.
Yeah, the last 3 post were rather random, but necessary.
I don't even know, but here I am to blog a rather lengthy post compared to the last.
Be notified that I'm just doing this to kill time to get back into CS; as my bittorrent is choking up CS so much its become rather impossible to play.
Anyway, new years. I had a rather mundane new years, I was at my moms house and we didn't do anything. But it felt necessary to have those relaxation periods. The day before, I had gone to the mall and picked out some stuff, but that wasn't such a big deal.
Theresa called that night, and we talked for about an hour, and that's becoming a rather scheduled thing. I enjoy it though, it's fun, and I hope she feels the same way too. My download is finishing up, there hasn't been an event to strike me to write a longer, deeper post, so im gone.
1.01.2004
waterlilly717: so got any resolutions?
xc a r b 0 n2k2x: uhh
xc a r b 0 n2k2x: not screw up relaitonships up with people by being overly introverted
happy new years.
:D
xc a r b 0 n2k2x: uhh
xc a r b 0 n2k2x: not screw up relaitonships up with people by being overly introverted
:D
